Friday, August 24, 2012

letting go of Grief

To those who have lost a loved one, this information may help heal your heart and hopefully help you find peace.
I lost my dad suddenly this summer. It shocked me, but I was not surprised as his health had been waning for years.
 For those who know me and my life story, know that years ago, I had an NDE myself and understand death at a different level. When I returned , my ability to stay in contact with the spirit world by sight and hearing was opened.
 That being said, when I heard of my dad's passing, the veil closed and I could not see or hear anyone, including my dad from the other side. This felt foreign and strange. I prayed and asked why. The Lord's answer came very clear. "Because you need to grieve" I had to feel that separation and go through a mourning stage. Within a week I had total peace.

In time, the veil opened back up and life for me has resumed as normal. Do I miss my dad? the answer is no. Shocked, you may ask why? It's because I feel him near. He is not far away and he(spirit) has come when I needed him. I have heard his voice, I have felt his hands placed on my head when other Preisthood beare have blessed me. I know he is near.
I have watched my sisters and mother over the months continue to grieve. This is normal in the world's eye. But today as I pondered this situation  and others I have known who have allowed grief and loss to play an active role in their life, and wondered why..... the Holy Spirit taught me this:

When we grieve beyond a certain period of time ( set by God) our spirits go into a low vibration. Think of a light with a dimmer switch. Those from the other side, our loved ones, can not enter a space where there is low vibrations.( light cleaveth unto light) They are at a high vibration and the low repels them. SATAN KNOWS THIS. So he has taught the world to grieve for months, years...because he knows that sad energy will naturally keep our loved ones away from us.This whole mindset of grief the world had accepted is false. It places a disregard for the Atonement of Christ, it keeps peace away...and it keeps our loved ones away.
If you want to feel them near, let go of the sorrow and remember the joy, live life in gratitude. Wasn't it Dr Suess that said " Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened" . I promise you, as the Lord has promised, if you give Him your grief, he will give you peace , choose to live a life in a state of love and gratitude, and joy vs. loss and sorrow and heaven and those therein can not be kept from you.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Nothing can take the place of a Father's hand, if you don't have one here to hold, reach a little higher

Tuesday, May 15, 2012


A story was told of a Caterpillar named Yellow who was
trying to discover what she should do with her life.
In her wanderings, she came across another Caterpillar caught in some gauzy filament. Concerned, she asked if she could help. The other Caterpillar explained that the filament was part of becoming a butterfly. When Yellow heard the word "Butterfly" , her whole insides leaped with excitement. "But what is a butterfly?" she asked. The cocooned Caterpillar explained, "It's what you are meant to become". Yellow was intrigued but a little defiant as well. " How can I believe that there is a butterfly inside you or me when all I see is a fussy worm?". She paused, after further reflection she asked pensively, "How does one become a butterfly?' and the answer was this, " You must want to fly so much that you are willing to give up being a Caterpillar"
I gave this story to a sister almost a decade ago as she was in a life transition. She unearthed it this weekend as she sorted through some old boxes. She shared it now with me . How appropriate that this would emerge the same weekend that I attended the ground breaking of the Provo City Center Temple. It was once a beloved a  Tabernacle, a place of worship, a place of peace. It was ravaged by fire over a year ago. We, the community both secular and saintly, grieved as we watched the flames overtake this beloved landmark. Our hearts were heavy, and souls sad.
But Like a Phoenix rising from the ashes or a butterfly emerging from a cocoon, there is something more glorious to be experienced.
God, the Master Architect, has the divine blue print in hand. He will refine our structure, our life, by the fires of adversity and trials. He is the one who allows the cocoons to be woven about us knowing that though we find them confining or restricting, they are necessary for our becoming. He knows the end result will be wings of light, wings of glory, lifting us higher then one could ever imagine as a Caterpillar. Arise a new and BE!

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

The Energy field of Forgiveness

The years of being an "energy therapist/facilitater" I have come across and learned about alot of enegry profiles and with that, I have come to appriciate that all creation is in a state of energy or vibration.
This morning while getting ready for work, my thoughts of a close friend who's family is at the brink of collapse filled my mind. As I went over the information I had been given and the possible senerios playing out on my mental stage , I wondered what it was that I was to do to help this person and family in crisis.
The answer was teach 'Forgiveness". Until there is forgivness plead for and given, the energy of the crisis will linger in the air and add to the discord. It will be, as it were, an atmosphere of frementing pea soup. For healing to take place, for the air to clear, for rational choices to be made, for peace to return, the energy , the vibration of forgiving needs to be the vital key to turn hearts back to light and open doors of renewal.
In all things we can do with energy therapy, tapping in to the atonment accessing the repentant heart and claiming the healing power of forgiving is what all this work is about. Forgive self, forgive one another. Truly it is as simple as that.

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Messages in Water..A must Read for everyone

Messages in Water is a book I recommend to everyone! It teaches one how our thoughts affect not only our health and well being but how our thoughts can affect evryone and everything around us. The experiment was placing words, phrases and pictures on water taken from the same source then photographing the crystals that formed ..or in some cases did not form( see insert photo) You can go on line and actually watch (on youtube) the crystals form as music is played with perfect time. You can also google more photos of the crystals.
To cut through to the chase, we humans are about 70% water, imagine that what we take in( via junk food, images, thoughts,words, attitudes etc) is doing to our bodies. Imagine what you are doing to someone else with your thoughts/ words. Calling someone names or sending them negative "energy" does affect them. Critizing ourselves weakens us."As a man thinketh so is he"
As you read the book, and I hope you do, you will have an awakening of the infinite complexity and wonder of the human creation. You will realize that in truth, it is the thought that counts!

Thursday, March 15, 2012

allegory of the lady bug kite

As of late it has been kite flying weather here along the Wasatch front. Clear skies and daily breezes has the kite flying public out with assorted kites and tails. Last week as a healthy Spring breeze was blowing thru, I met with a friend at our "Temple beach" and launched our little bug kite into the air.
It soared for a while then decided to do a few cart wheels in the current , a gentle tug on the line regained some control and then down to the earth it went .
This pattern continued as we would launch and re launch..I found that my little kite , which once soared to great heights just a few days before, was now satisfied to just fly higher than about 20 feet before it would have a fit, flip out, cartwheel and plummet to the earth.
I noticed, however, that as the currents changed my little kite would try to adjust, connect with the wind and keep aloft, but along with a low flying altitude or should I say attitude, even the possibility of catching a nice strong upward current was not on her agenda. And here in lies the lesson. I learned while standing barefoot on the sand with a dizzy kite that so many of God's children are content to just fly low. The winds of change or the possibility of soaring to our potential scares us to death, we plummet back to the safe ground. We, like a kite, have every right to soar, we are built to soar, to rise above it all and BE. Be what we were designed to be.
Maybe my little green lady bug kite really did want to fly..but knowing there was a lesson to be learned, she sacrificed a bit of breeze in hopes that I would catch it, remember who I am and allow myself to soar.

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Tis the Season

They say the Christmas season is one of music and if you are a music lover or enjoy all kinds of Christmas music like I do, you will enjoy this re-release CD. The Brunson Brothers and their long time friend and fellow musician, Jay Osmond have teamed up for for this incredible Christmas CD, Tis the Season

I found the arrangements of the season's favorite tunes very 'tight' and well written. There is something for everyone on this CD.

Jamie Glazier, one of the country's top studio Guitarist adds his talent to this musical wonderland of Christmas songs as well . He adds a little bit of that up beat, rock and roll feel to the musical experience! I absolutly love the flavor this CD adds to my menu of Chritmas Music!!

If you want to buy a copy of the CD /DVD you can contact Gaynor Brunson at or order direct through their studio : Brunson Brothers Media Group...801 375-3278

Tis the season......ENJOY!